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Sep 29 2020

Worldwide Deaths Eclipse 1 Million

Author: Kerry

Globally, as of 29 September 2020, there have been 33,249,563 confirmed cases of COVID-19, including 1,000,040 deaths, reported to WHO.

Today I attended Judy’s funeral … via zoom… This new world… it amazes me… and terrifies me… I saw faces I havent seen in years… but missed seeing the faces of those in the audience… So much.

Judy passed away from Cancer… but to mourn her death on the day the world mourns this milestone feels surreal… and heartbreaking…

I miss seeing people from the shoulders down…. I miss Judy… I miss Jamie and Erin (and the others) and their children so much.

I screen captured this- just because it felt so unreal… but I was so grateful to be connected how ever I could be… thank you to the family so much for making that possible.

To hear her life sketch…

its very different when you aren’t there in person afterwards… to hug them and talk to them its… just final… and lonely.

He talked about her love of this season we are entering… her love of seeing the leaves… I knew this… I learned it from her… so we took a drive sunday and spent a moment in the outside remembering her away from the monitors and news stations

I miss so much… but as I sit here… broken hearted… I hold out belief that one day I will see you all again… below your shoulders…. without a monitor… So much love and light to you.

Aug 21 2020

This Week? Opening Schools Safely in a Pandemic

Author: Kerry

21 August 2020, there have been 22,536,278 confirmed cases of COVID-19, including 789,197 deaths, reported to WHO

Our story in Pictures….

Seems dreamy right? after 5 Months of being shut ins… well … it is a dream. There is NO WAY we can send her to school… we are high risk… and people still think this is a HOAX! Still!!! I just cannot even… So here is what really happened on the first day of school….

Had my Adult Children over last week for a Pandemic dinner party… We havent been indoors together since march… here is how this new normal looked…

Aug 11 2020

Corona Virus Chronicles

Author: Kerry

Entry – like 5 bazillion? 5 months today I have been quarantined… 5 months… There is a sense of a false light at the end of the tunnel… but it is a lie… and the second wave is coming.

Every year on the last day of school we head to the lake… weve been doing it for over a decade… not this year

July is full of birthday celebrations and adventures… not this year

I don’t really know what I would’ve done to celebrate my sons engagement- but it would’ve been something nice… a nice restaurant… something. But we didn’t.

We are trying to stay afloat financially… and trying to give everything we have to those who cannot… supporting local business is how… so here is what we did this year… end of school year… birthdays… engagement… end of summer… all in one.

and it helped… a little… The Tall, The Smalls, The Tinies… all had so much fun…. I think a lot of people are feeling it… look who I saw!!

Im gonna paint her some masks… make them a little more snazzy.

And then ofcourse this ridiculousness is trending on social media… I thought about posting it … but it is too honest… so here it is.

Situation in numbers (by WHO) as of August 11, 2020
Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
Globally 19,936,210 cases (216,033) 732,499 deaths (4,268)

Aug 06 2020

Plague… Pandemic…. Whatevs

Author: Kerry

As of August 6th, 2020

Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
Globally 18,614,177 cases (259,344) 702,642 deaths (6,488)

Seems to be slump time again… collectively mankind seems to fall into slumps during this… right now seems to be a big one…. Im picking fights on facebook… QAnon has riled up the right wing masses… the blaze reading…. hannity hearing… bigoted believers? too far? maybe into this #SaveTheChildren thing… and you know what? Im here for that… I mean im always here for that… do I think #PizzaGate is a thing? not really… but do I think hollywood elite and political peeps are abusing children and trafficking them? yes, I know they are… so im glad something is coming out of that group that may be constructive? we will see

Trump is a hot mess… as usual… I watched his Axios interview one night over and over again … not sleeping at all… because well… it just made me happy? why? i couldnt explain it…. maybe it is because he was so helpless in the face of reality… he was less scary

I live behind a screen…. from a phone screen to a computer screen to a TV screen and back to a phone screen again… I am not eating right… not exercising…. not sleeping… not even showering often enough… im eating mashed potatoes for breakfast… but I did renew my aclu membership… so there is hope

I am here for that – What I am not here for is that I look just like my sister in this photo… sigh

I went to the outside this week… this is what the outside looks like for me

But I am alive… and that is something no one should be taking for granted right now… there was a HUGE explosion in Beirut… thousands of people dying of Covid-19 on the daily… Hurricane season is in all its glory… protests and police brutality are still a thing… as well as the karens… I mean… I seriously have nothing else to say… other than… WONT SOMEONE THINK ABOUT THE CHILDREN??? oh wait… QANON has that…. how about… nah…Still working from home… still wearing masks… seeing my peeps only through snap chat and facebook…

I got nothing… here… have some hope… because this is all I got going for me right now…

and there is yet another riveting entry in my Corona Chronicles.

Jul 29 2020

My Covid-19 Chronicles…

Author: Kerry

I think this is like my millionth post (not literally… but it feels that way) about life in this pandemic… Lets start with some pictures…

6 ft and masks dance recital with her sister 🙂

The Birthday Masks were a hit… my god… they are so beautiful.

July 29th Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
Globally 16,558,289 cases (215,127) 656,093 deaths (5,274)

Here locally… the battle wages on about what to do about schools… nationally the battle is what to do about our President… unmarked cars are rolling up to protests with federal agents just snatching people off the street…. sigh… I have been obsessed with Dystopian stories my entire life… so I am well prepared for this new normal… I think I am finally prepared for the grey hair too…. Check this out

Maybe I’ll color it grey and just speed it up LOL – As you can see – I’m Selfcaring BAHAHAHA

Friends keep asking me what I think… what to do… what I keep telling them is wait two weeks… it will be an entirely different reality again… its been like this since March… The entire world is changing and we have to keep adjusting and not planning on anything… because it is all unknown… if that ever doesn’t happen with in two weeks… we will know things are possibly settling down… wanna know a secret?

Yep! Fairy City is alive and well… infact it is very much doubling its efforts to keep spirits high… and chins up… and injustices spoken against.

Keep Causing “Good Trouble” until we can meet again.

Jul 17 2020

Pandemic Life

Author: Kerry

I should have been tagging these posts… This life… this pandemic… this quarantine… this Covid-19… as images of the Spanish flu are resurfacing… I cannot help but think one day… someone will show mine… That is why I take so many pictures of the changes in my life.

July is a serious Month in my little patchwork family… SO MANY things happen… Two Holidays… Four Birthdays… (previous posts) I have been writing letters for years to my children on their birthdays… Let me show you what seeing my Tribe looks like now…

This is what my Grandbabies wanted for their respective Birthdays at the end of this month… not only did I volunteer to make them… I cried a little that they are so excited for Birthday Masks

My Soul brother Facetimed me so my Soul mother and I could see each other… I havent hugged her in almost six months

THIS is how my son announced he had proposed to his beautiful now fiance… you guys… my heart cant take anymore. They let me take pictures through the screen of my window…

I am so happy for them 🙂 Love is still the greatest force on this planet.

AND my street art project achieved virtual stardom this week with the HIGHEST possible honor… and I still cannot contain my joy about this…

Globally, as of 17 July 2020, Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
13,616,593 cases (237,743) 585,727 deaths (5,682)

This is how you celebrate your new engaged only Sons (only biological child) 21st birthday 🙁

Wait for it…

What comes next… who knows… the entire world is changing week by week… I guess we are surviving… I don’t know about Thriving…. but we sure do love.

Jun 22 2020

This Morning… I went to the OUTSIDE!!! (Again)

Author: Kerry

I headed out for some imaging of the previous posts mentioned thingy (it was hidden under all my Black Lives Matter stuff So YES you have to read that to find it bahahahaha)… I do not for the life of me understand people’s excuses for not wearing a mask… I mean I’m making excuses to wear em… look how adorable I am! Yep- I’m 46… and yep I love my kitty cat mask! 😹

The cute ladies in imaging burst into giggles upon sight of me… and it totally made my day… because you know… we know each other… I feel like I live here.

Friday was an amazing day… I donated my painting to the March happening here on Juneteenth!!

I let the organizer know that I didn’t want it back… that it would find itself a home after the march… and now I’m not crying… you’re crying… HUGE crocodile tears when you see who took it home and hung it on their wall

Image may contain: 1 person, tree, grass and outdoor

Then Late that evening I started getting messages… and apparently I am famous now… bahahaha I’ll be doing autographs at ten.

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Okay I feel like we are pretty caught up- so lets talk pandemic again…. The numbers Globally are skyrocketing… and the one campaign promise Agent Orange 45 kept was that America would be number one again… thanks for that asshat.

Globally 8,708,008 cases 461,715 deaths (6/21/2020)

United States of America 2,208,829 cases 118,895 deaths (6/21/2020)

Medical Experts are sounding alarms… Governments are focused on reopening …. Trump wants to test less… so we do not raise numbers? yeah… its going well.

In that spirit we moved back to car adventures with the tinies… we went to the drive in Saturday… and oh man… my heart just sings everytime I see these faces.

Image may contain: one or more people, people standing, sky, cloud and outdoor — I get airhugs- She gets real hugs… Ill take it!

Image may contain: 4 people, including Heather Warren, people standing and outdoor — My Tall child and her Tiny’s in her car

Image may contain: one or more people and eyeglasses — Us in ours… we don’t always wear masks… since we live together… but smallest child has been practicing some social distancing and having a social life… so we were safe for this close up photo.

The greatest part of the evening was when I taught them how to scare off bees… and had them screaming BOO BEES at the top of their lungs much to their mothers dismay.

I do not know what is next… I do not know the point of this post… I just needed to get it all out… something tells me there is going to be a lot coming at me… and I needed to be ready to deal with it… so vomiting what I am holding in my mind into the keyboard is the answer. Love and Light to you and yours 🙂

Jun 12 2020

Updates all around

Author: Kerry

Everything I wanted to say here… I said in an email already…So I’m just gonna cut and paste it here LOL Yep- I’m that lazy…

I don’t really know how things are out there either, I know the rec center is open again, and the library… I think over the next week we will see even more changes. I am surprisingly doing great since the zinc incident…. I never realized over the last year how much my face had changed as that jaw and cheek bone (not to mention spine) were under duress…. as the bone is growing back in thanks to the graft that I was positive wouldn’t work on me… my face is changing dramatically – at first I thought it was swelling… but i could feel it in my cheek bones…. and someone on a conference call online commented on it that could see me in my webcam…. so I knew it wasn’t in my head… so I went through some photos… and found photos of myself a year ago….

I ran into an old friend and took a selfie with him, look at my teeth first off… just one year ago… full and white… and my cheekbones high
Then looked at one of my in february…. drinking tigers eye from a bottle (jokingly) during legislation

obviously by this point I was hiding my teeth at work… but you can tell anyways… my cheeks are completely hollow and goneso slowly I guess I didn’t notice…. but the regrowth back so fast I felt like I didn’t look like myself… however… pictures prove… I look exactly like myself again… I kinda like that!Here I am this morning! Look! Cheeks!

The other thing I’ve been up too when im not working – is I made this years fairy city video- I don’t know if I told you I make a video that just highlights it all… for my memories… Here I am attaching this years and last years links. its been an interesting fairy season to say the least.
my email to Christine while shes been in quarantine at an airbnb

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_sZTdK9Foo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D8QfHmFSrW4

May 04 2020

May the 4th be with all of us…

Author: Kerry

As I psych myself up to write this… I contemplate how many things I have had to psych myself up for already today… getting out of bed… face washed… brushing my hair… teeth… eating… my morning drive… focusing on conversations… , remembering what I have to do and in what order… and this is all before midday.

I am not good at asking for help out in the real world. … Despite days of feeling fine and genuinely happy with life and the world … More often than not lately… I find myself crying… for no apparent reason at all…. I have struggled with depression my whole life… depression would cause me to sit in my room and cry… usually for no reason at all. This is different… This is something else all together and I can’t quite title it… or put my finger on it… I can’t quite believe how much my life has changed… I cannot wrap my head around where we are right now… I cannot envision tomorrow… next week… next month seem way out of the picture.

I am not raising any alarms… I am okay guys… I am just putting into words what surely we are all feeling.

This morning I went for my drive to check on my street art project… one of the locations… the location that I know people count on the most this year… was gone. Decimated.

It has been a source of peace for me… and happiness for others

Do you know what though? Its okay… maybe it made someone feel better to pick it up… maybe it annoyed someone… maybe it got in their way?

Sigh

Today I am going to the Dentist! I get to go to the Dentist! Whoever thought I would be excited about that… it would’ve taken a Pandemic to make that happen… Luckily… we are in one.

Leaving the house on May the 4th? I’ve got just the outfit for that.

Let the Saga Continue…

Situation in numbers
Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
Globally 3 349 786 cases(82 763) 238 628 deaths (8657)

Apr 20 2020

The New Normal…

Author: Kerry

I hate the phrase… yet you cannot hear a news story with out it… sometimes it feels like people are trying to find a way to work it into a sentence I swear… but then yesterday I did a thing… and I had no other phrase to use as I tossed and turned all night long trying to make sense of things in my head.

Let me start this story by saying this… Sewing is against my religion

But… The New Normal… sigh

My youngest grandchild’s and my matching masks

and distance delivered… cause the new normal 🙁

Literally threw them from my car like I had a T shirt gun or I was Trump with paper towels.

it took me hours… half of them didn’t fit… I was still proud. I take a LOT of pictures… I mean a LOT. I love them… and I love to finish an adventure and then flip through them… and when I got home and laid on the couch… again… cause thats the new normal… I notice something in the photos…

Their eyes… Specifically my girls… but then looking closely… the boys as well.

Their eyes reminded me of their reaction…. Two weeks ago my house donned masks for the first time… we made masks (no sew version) as the CDC recommended and put them on..

We did not know how to make them… they were uncomfortable… but we did it… it was an exercise in feeling less helpless… we weren’t sure how to even put them on

We drew them on our favorite disney characters… used hoodies in stead…

Finally wore them when we went out for Easter Window coloring/Jellybean delivery

But what I didn’t realize is that these littles… were so little… that this new normal… is normal for them… and they were so happy to get masks… and didn’t even question having to wear them… they donned them instantly… in fact… they looked terrified to not have them on once they had them. The eyes of my Granddaughter haunted me all evening afterwards… and I reached out to a friend… and her mother to talk about it… because my heart was sick… and sad… I didn’t want them to feel that way.

They told me “Its not scary to them… Its kind of cool and fun to wear them… plus their Grandma made it for them… which makes it even better.” Something about that rang true to me… They weren’t scared… it was more about my sadness than theirs… even if their eyes are haunted. They aren’t haunted by the masks… they’re haunted by the panic in us. They are just trying to do anything to make that better.

Knowing I hadn’t scared them didn’t make me feel much better… I am still sad… but it did make me realize we have to do this… we can do this. I need those kids… and myself to be okay… I need to wrap my arms around them again… and cover their faces in kisses… I need to get close enough to tell them I love them… instead of using sign language through windows. This new normal is something I have to acclimate to… so we can get there.

As the world is losing their minds… protesting in large numbers… the stay at home orders… that aren’t even being enforced… but highlighted by right wing nut jobs (Our president specifically) I am back in my home… tucked into my couch desk… typing this taking is solace in the only thing I can. Love. I love them so much…. Love and the fact that this too shall pass… it is what it is.

One day soon I will make those haunted eyes lighten with laughter and excitement again… one day soon I will hold them… even if it is with masks on and we wash our hands after… and we don’t touch our faces… Soon.

“It’ll be okay, Mom” – thats what tall child told me. Today I am going to believe her.

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Articles

Worldwide Deaths Eclipse 1 Million

This Week? Opening Schools Safely in a Pandemic

Corona Virus Chronicles

Plague… Pandemic…. Whatevs

As of August 6th, 2020

Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
Globally 18,614,177 cases (259,344) 702,642 deaths (6,488)

My Covid-19 Chronicles…

Pandemic Life

This Morning… I went to the OUTSIDE!!! (Again)

Updates all around

May the 4th be with all of us…

The New Normal…

socially acceptable f@#% off!

As of August 6th, 2020

Total (new cases in last 24 hours)Globally 18,614,177 cases (259,344) 702,642 deaths (6,488)

Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
Globally 18,614,177 cases (259,344) 702,642 deaths (6,488)