Articles for the Month of September 2020

Sep 30 2020

To My Beautiful Daughter…

Author: Kerry

I’ll never forget when we brought you home to that tiny house…Your dad said as we left that first parent meeting

“We’ll keep her!”

He was so very proud of you. We all were.

I should have known early on that you might keep on looking for new adventures,…opportunities and people that might fulfill that curiosity and wonder life gave you from the start… you have not let one limit be set… one boundary unexplored… you do not take love for granted… that is so rare.

You are so beautiful inside and out…

And those eyes…

Those big, brown, beautiful eyes.

You never let the world stop you….Not that little boy who stood you up for the dance….the one you pushed aside. Not the child who tried to take your brothers toy and you punched her in the face.

You were fierce, a force to be reckoned with, at even the tiniest sight of injustice. And yet, you love…love deeper and wider than any human I have ever seen.

You love your friend’s… and even strangers… when they are struggling with very real problems.
You love the puppies who sit behind bars in the shelter… the ones calling you to take them home. 🙂
You love your siblings
It didn’t matter someone’s track record or story. You were determined to love… every child, young or old who woke at night… or sat and looked helplessly into your eyes….

Especially your own children.

And yet… it isn’t just your loving that I admire. But the way you don’t let pain… hurt or the offensive evil scars taint the way you KEEP giving your love… your time and your attention to those around you.

You just have this gift of somehow picking up the pieces of hurt from others….even from me at times…and then move forward in the belief that the world is better when we forgive.

Perfectionism is just a hollow hole of worldly dressing that aches so desperately for love… it decorates itself up with outward appearances, in hopes to cover up emptiness, on the inside.

But you look past that. How do you always know how to love, even those most broken?

You were made to love.

So today… angel girl, as you walk through “The New Normal”, don’t forget…

Far and wide… big-brown-eyed wonder… it has been such an honor to be your Mother. I will forever be eternally grateful.

Enjoy your day and please remember, I am thankful, and so proud of who are you.

You show the world what light and wonder and love really looks like… I hope the world is taking as many notes as I am… We could all use this lesson right now

Happy Birthday Tall Child

I love you. Mom

Sep 29 2020

Worldwide Deaths Eclipse 1 Million

Author: Kerry

Globally, as of  29 September 2020, there have been 33,249,563 confirmed cases of COVID-19, including 1,000,040 deaths, reported to WHO.

Today I attended Judy’s funeral … via zoom… This new world… it amazes me… and terrifies me… I saw faces I havent seen in years… but missed seeing the faces of those in the audience… So much.

Judy passed away from Cancer… but to mourn her death on the day the world mourns this milestone feels surreal… and heartbreaking…

I miss seeing people from the shoulders down…. I miss Judy… I miss Jamie and Erin (and the others) and their children so much.

I screen captured this- just because it felt so unreal… but I was so grateful to be connected how ever I could be… thank you to the family so much for making that possible.

To hear her life sketch…

its very different when you aren’t there in person afterwards… to hug them and talk to them its… just final… and lonely.

He talked about her love of this season we are entering… her love of seeing the leaves… I knew this… I learned it from her… so we took a drive sunday and spent a moment in the outside remembering her away from the monitors and news stations

I miss so much… but as I sit here… broken hearted… I hold out belief that one day I will see you all again… below your shoulders…. without a monitor… So much love and light to you.

Sep 23 2020

Sometimes… the hardest days of your life still happen… even in a Pandemic

Author: Kerry

Globally, as of 23 September 2020, there have been 31,425,029 confirmed cases of COVID-19, including 967,164 deaths, reported to WHO.

This post is not Covid-19 related… In fact it is not even Cancer related; though it is what is to blame… It is related to Judy Wight… My Aunt… My Friend… My encourager… My laughter inspiring blood relation who I will miss fiercely … passed away 23 September 2020.

After the phone call Friday I frantically racked my brain… my memory of our last conversation… it had been only two weeks prior… had I told her? did I tell her how much I admired her? loved her? appreciated her?

I had.

and as a side note… I encourage each and everyone of you to make everything that comes out of your mouth and keyboard in conversation about portraying that… because you never know when you are going to get that call…

I did not go see her… in her hospital bed… I couldnt (thats how the pandemic applies)

But I did send her the HUGEST bouquet of flowers I could.

and let her children know how much I wished there were anything I could do to help them…

I’ve known Judy my whole life… but when her father (my grandpa) passed away we became close… maybe not close as others… but for me? Who is so “lone wolf” it was very close… I admired the woman… I love the woman… I have done service with her… The most recent being a nursing home phone call program she put together…. oh have I laughed with her… our appreciation of mischief and irony are so well aligned…

And now whatever way our stories end. I know you have rewritten mine By being my friend…. Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better. But Because I knew you…I have been changed for good

“For Good” Wicked Musical Soundtrack

I’ll share a few times we have made each other laugh… and leaned on each other.

To say we related to each other may be a given..

And I will share a few photos of the many we have… because you can see what I mean… about her being so beautiful… so clever and witty… so loved.

When my time comes… as it will… because that is part of living… I sincerely hope people are as peaceful about it… as I am for Judy… I hope I have lived so well… and always have that next trip planned out overseas already… like she. I hope my life leaves them no doubt that it was such a well lived adventure… that though they may miss me… I didn’t miss out on anything. I hope my life is so well lived, that the conversations they have with me are about gratitude for each other, admiration and love, Like She.

Sep 18 2020

Sometimes… the best days of your life still happen… even in a Pandemic

Author: Kerry

Globally, as of, 18 September 2020, there have been 30,055,710 confirmed cases of COVID-19, including 943,433 deaths, reported to WHO.

The 13th of September was one of those days…. My son… my only birth child … informed his beautiful fiancé that his mom wouldn’t wear a dress to their wedding… he was just helping her with expectations… so I bought a formal gown… cause I can… but they never mentioned shoes??

They had the most touching wedding – outside- under a glaring sun…. the attendees were mostly in their wedding party… there were less than 10 more in the audience… Pandemic

and then we danced… like our souls and lives depended on it… it was magical

Then I spent the next day (My 47th Birthday) sitting/ laying on ice… thanks tumor leg… LOL

And now we quarantine… incase we were not careful enough… incase we got the virus … so we do not spread it… and the timing is good… because we are at the start of the second wave… and the prediction models make the first one look like a practice one…. Also- We get flu shots… because you can have two viruses at once… how would you ever survive that?