I dont know what to say… its been Ten Days… I went to the OUTSIDE!!
They are temp teeth… Sure, I’ve had to eat soft food and be careful… but I have them! Soon I will have permanent false teeth… they are going to pull the remaining top teeth and stitch them shut (because I will not heal on my own) and put on an old school denture… this depressed me when I first got the news… now? Ill take it… seriously… cause look teeth! My bar for happiness is low… I hit a bottom… I cringe to say it was rock bottom… because I am sure it could get lower…. I cried and cried… I text Mr Amazing that this was going to end our marriage… this virus… this quarantine… That I would end up hating him for this time that I tried so hard to respect his love for me enough to stay home… or that when I couldn’t anymore… he would end up hating me… for putting his life at risk… by going out… hugging my grandchildren… and then it passed. The constant tears…. the panic… and I still stayed home… our relationship is so much less than amazing through this… but we are together… committed… trying… talking …. crying… not giving up. Moving closer to being good again.
Total (new cases in last 24 hours)
Globally 4,170,424 cases (81,577) 287,399 deaths (4,245)
I sent a graduation gift today… to an adored child that isnt mine… there will not be a graduation ceremony that we recognize.
We are finding ways to survive… these breathes of fresh air help…
On Mothers Day 🙂
The drive in opened!!! So we air hugged and watched a movie we had all seen …. separately but together
This weekend there is a Drive through Light Show we will see much the same way… and I CANNOT WAIT!!!
I have started an abstract painting of this virus… It helps… to process…. Nature is not Evil… or racist… or classist… it just is… and honestly… it is beautiful… and bizarre
People are becoming riotous…. Trump is igniting it…. Why is white america the only ones protesting? is it because they’ve never not had privilege? Most likely… I do not understand the anger …. the misguided animosity.
Today? I am okay… Im working still… I am going to paint some more… I am going to stay home and be grateful for my family in home, and out. I am still alive… I am not grabbing Metal Rods and running towards the lightening… today… Today I will just see if lightening strikes without me daring it.
Today I live with love in my heart.
Today I hope you have a good day and experience love.
