Articles for the Month of January 2013

Jan 15 2013

…Excited for the weekend?? Wag your tail!!!

Author: Kerry

I don’t have the category on this blog entitled “Oddities” for nothing people…

This really happened! and the Daily News really wrote about it… but hey… then again… So did I… just now… you are reading it…

 

Here is just plain weird.

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The Tailly’s belt contains a sensor that reads the wearer’s heart rate. The tail then wags faster or slower accordingly.

Tailly will be available in a variety of colors, according to the Kickstarter page.

“You could even wear Tailly on a date and express your true feelings through the wagging tail,” the developers suggest…. I don’t need to tell you how much mine would be waggin at the thought of it!

Read more: http://www.nydailynews.com/life-style/wearable-tail-show-feel-article-1.1233438#ixzz2I4dMICxu

Jan 14 2013

… Release through Creativity…

Author: Kerry

I’m cheating again this week… I might have a problem with it honestly… So mamakats writers prompts came out a day early… and my cell phone chimed as the email came to my gmail account as I was spending my Sunday afternoon in my paint room… I stopped and with paint covered fingers navigated the touch screen to open it and read the prompts… The prompts this week were take from the “One Word” resolutions of last week… What a GREAT idea!! Two of the words jumped off the page from the list of 5 ( here are all five just because it did inspire so many blog ideas)

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1.) Explore 2.) Release 3.) Trust 4.) Acceptance 5.) Creativity

I experience release through creativity…

I have an issue… okay several, but if you have read this blog a while the theme around most of it is in appropriately channeled anxiety…

So every other Sunday morning (the Sunday morning small child is at his fathers)

I generally wake up on the wrong side of the bed… I cry at the drop of a hat… I get very nit picky.. and panicky about housework (which then triggers poor Mr. Amazing’s anxiety)

Its regular party…

But we recognize it.. and I have all the tools to deal with it… even though sometimes I forget I can actually use these tools…

First-  I took a warm shower… took the time to do the girly groomy thingys that sometimes make us feel better…

still hadn’t found the calm or release I desperately needed…

So I grabbed the container I use for water… filled it slowly… and walked down the stairs.. gingerly… with my broken tailbone… fucked up knees (it was 5 degrees yesterday) … and broken toe… all of these things are a story of their own… that I am just plain tired of writing about… so use your imagination…

I opened the door to my paint room… I lit a candle… some incense .. plugged in the phone to a speaker… played my favorite genre off of Pandora… and I painted…

I took a  HUGE canvas I had received for Christmas from small child and just let myself blend the colors and cover the canvas… I had an idea of what I wanted this to be… but I felt the need to make the color so rich… and the paint so thick… that I wouldn’t be able to finish it…

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So I took another canvas that I had already painted the background of and practiced… here is the start of it… I will post it when it is finished… and then I will attempt to do something similar on the giant canvas… angeland I felt peace…

With every stroke of the brush… and every layer of color… I felt the stress and anxiety leave me… and lost track of time… and forgot about the pain…  It was truly a release through creativity… I intend to work on it again tonight.

UPDATED:

Still not done- but further along… also… completely unrelated… I love you people

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Jan 10 2013

… Impossibly Magical!

Author: Kerry

LOVE LOVE LOVE! I know I have posted a lot of their songs on these thursdays… but really… There is an obvious reason 🙂

Jan 09 2013

… I can’t keep living this way.

Author: Kerry

I can’t keep living this way… If you have been a reader of this blog… you know sleep issues are a running theme. I am a lifelong insomniac… as well as a long time experiencing Adult Night Terrors individual… There is a lot that goes along with this that I do not share … Panic attacks over my sleeping environment being one of them (until now)… Also you know that I have recently in the past few years met … fell in love with… and married my Night Time Knight in shining armor… Mr. Amazing. (everything is appropriately back linked if you want the history 🙂 )

Something new in my sleep pattern is emerging as I continue down this road to happy destiny… And it is more disturbing to me personally than any of the above… I. Am. Sleeping. SOUNDLY… So soundly that last night Mr. Amazing came into the bedroom (he had too stay up late working from home) … OPENED the door… entered our bedroom… said my name twice… tried to shoe the dog from the bed… and in a tired exasperated state of mind gave up and went back to the couch and fell asleep…. In my life… as long as I can remember… I have NEVER slept through someone entering a room, a door opening or closing anywhere in where I am sleeping… I have NEVER slept through someone speaking in the room … or a dog climbing up on the bed…

45 minutes after his attempt to come to bed… I … as is my habit unfortunately… bolted up in bed… not finding him there… and the inexplicable rage that comes with a full blown panic attack… which comes from finding you are not in the circumstance you think you are while asleep… found myself in the living room yelling at him … he tried to explain what had happened (Public Service Announcement: No one should ever ever ever try to have rational conversations whilst in the grasps of recent sleep… because they are never rational) to which I responded with complete disbelief .. because I don’t do that… I don’t sleep through things… and I certainly don’t want to start… I lay awake (mostly) from that point on … in complete terror that it was possible (which is of course the truth). I had taken Advil pm… the lack of aches… and the added sleep… along with all the other healthy things taking place in my life… less energy drinks… less coffee… less insecurity… less instability… less depression… less nightmares… less sleepless nights… less worries… had finally caught up with me… We fumbled through amends this morning… he kept making them… when in reality… this is all me… this mess is mine… he just wants me to sleep… he just wants to me to know I am safe enough to really sleep that deeply… His intentions are so amazing… and through tears… I had to tell him that I am choosing to hang onto this one thing… for now… My sleep pattern… because it is like a life line… it is irrational… irresponsible… and unfair of me… but it is what I want… So I have been awake since the wee hours of this morning… and I have already downed one energy drink.. and I am moving onto coffee… Maybe one day… but not this day….

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Jan 09 2013

… Melting down…

Author: Kerry

You know when you break a vase and seamlessly glue it back together… but there is still that one chipped piece… So you display the vase with the chipped part facing the wall… so no one can see it…. People walk by and exclaim what a pretty vase and never see the chip because they don’t bother to turn the vase around… But you know it’s there… That… In reverse.
This is kinda how life feels sometimes.

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Jan 08 2013

… Ever been so out of touch that you don’t even know this about yourself?

Author: Kerry

Yeah… That happened, I thought I would take the cheat prompt this week… Not have to put a lot of thought into it… have been soooooooooo busy that I haven’t had time to really sit and write… sad… because this blog is the one thing that is truly me… that I do for myself and I honestly love it… so I grabbed the questions… and sat down to answer them…. and I didn’t know the answers… Have I even listened to a full album this year? I have not, I have not slowed down or connected to much of 2012… So this took a lot longer to write than I anticipated… because I have to do some of the things on the list… to actually get to know myself again… so I can share it with you

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  1. Favorite 2012 Movie: We are Movie Fanatics! We see a lot of them! I know it got a lot of criticism … but hands down… Les Mis
  2. Favorite Album: This morning I slowed down enough to listen to the Les Mis soundtrack … I loved it!
  3. Favorite Song:  Viva La Vida – Coldplay … Somethings just dont change 🙂 But I do post a theme song each week – if you want something a little different
  4. Favorite Tweeter: Nik & Erika’s Mom (She is my best friend – And is mostly who responds to my drunk new years eve tweets) 
  5. Favorite Blog: The Bloggess
  6. Favorite TV Show: Sunday Morning News!! Everything about it!! Lately Charles Osgood has been closing out the show playing the piano and singing…. he reminds me so much of my Grandfather (his voice, My grandpa loves to sing barbershop)
  7. Favorite Instagramer: AlJazeera Witness (Stunning)
  8. Favorite Moment: Putting on the red dress 🙂
  9. Favorite Conference: I did not attend any this year (Insert sad face here) I would LOVE to go to a few in 2013. NMX, SXSW, BBC.
  10. Favorite Viral Video: Okay – I don’t think this went too viral… But I laughed to tears… bahahaha… only because well… me and small child sing like this to the song…. and Mr. Amazing hates it.
Jan 03 2013

… To be felt

Author: Kerry

This Week’s Prompt

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1.) Instead of a resolution, some people choose a theme word to live by for the year. Choose a word for 2013 and tell us why you chose it.

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adjective

1. readily or plainly seen, heard, perceived, etc.; obvious; evident.

2. capable of being touched or felt; tangible.

As far as an explanation  as to why I chose this… I don’t know if I can put it into words… I want to be real… Involved… acknowledged… hands on… I don’t want to be invisible… I want to scream at the top of my lungs that I need validation… I want to validate myself.
 

I hope this New Year brings you so much Joy that it is Palpable!