Disclaimer: this is being typed in a pitch black room… First time from a mobile device…From my bed… And I have taken Tylenol PM… It’s only 9 PM… But I need sleep… So spelling and grammar nazis back off… This is bound to be full of typos and half formed thoughts. Go pick on the other posts … Which all have the same problem and do not contain the disclaimer… In fact… Apparently that is all the Tylenol PM did was give me manners…. It’s not Ambien what did you expect.

Its October… You know the month after September…. Like the thing that happens when September is over… That’s right… Over… I made it … Only one run in with anemia… Which was probably really more of a blessing seeing as how it wiped me out for almost a week…that combined with an insane amount of work… Insane in the form of a ridiculous amount of hours and stress… And I cried a lot of tears of frustration over it… But really it was a blessing in disguise… I get that now… It can stop anytime… I am okay for the most part… A lot of the time…. Sometimes…. My birthday came and went how I prefer it, with hardly a mention… The thirtieth passed Sunday and I spent it surrounded with friends and tucked all those horrible feelings away and didn’t acknowledge them…

So I up my amount of red meat consumption to get on top of the anemia… I stop being fascinated with how the bruises come and counting them… And I try to start sleeping again… I feel like I got off too easy… Like something is lurking… But I digress….

I am ready for autumn.

Orange and red leaves covering the mountains everywhere I turn… The mornings are a little brisk… Pumpkin bins are popping up outside the grocery stores… Costumes are being thought up and planned… Corn mazes… Scary movies…. Tv marathons as the nights get darker sooner…

Soon I will be able to see my breath in the mornings… And smell the heater the first time it turns on… And see the smoke lilting out of the chimneys as I drive down the hill…

Warm breads… Hot drinks…hoodies…

Fall is like a brisk breath of fresh air after the summers oppressive heat… The gnats and Mosquitos will freeze up and die…

Spiders try to move indoors and we all take our turn saving each others lives … By being the mighty spider slayer…

One year almost to the day I moved into this home … Weeks before our arts and crafts wedding…. One year ago we formed this little family… It’s been a lot of firsts… Firsts of everything really… Im so ready to try the seconds… I hope they are as wonderFul and laughter filled as the firsts…